.living.

~growing~



tak pernah cukup dengan apa yang kita ada.. semua manusia macam tu.



hidup tak pernah puas dengan apa yg mereka perolehi. kenapa?

lumrah manusia yg akan reti mengucapkan syukur bila baru-baru dapat apa yang dihajati.

selang 2-3 minggu mereka yg kurang imannya akan lupa.

aku berfikir sejenak dengan apa yg aku ada.. masih tak cukup kah? perlu ditambah kah lagi? mesti kerrr?

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Baru pulang dari Melaka.

Its just a normal visit to his house. Ala-ala datang beraya. We went for fishing and got 10 fishes.

Ibu bekalkan keropok dan rendang ayam. Kami makan sate lagi sebelum hantar aku ke Melaka Central. Suka bangat dia dengan sate.
Aku suka datang sana walaupun ummi cakap aku tak malu pegi rumah orang. hahahah.. (",)

Erm... Anniversary dah dekat. Apa nak buat yer? (~~)
Apa pulak nak bagi kali ni?

Dia tak suka beria2. Sesimple yang boleh baru dia satisfy.

I ask him for dinner. Huahuahua dia cakap kita makan sate je nak? :D nak gelak pn ada aku rasa.

Dia jenis yang tak suka tunjuk depan orang kalau dia sayang. Dia pernah tanya aku is he a romantic person? My answer is; NOT AT ALL!

I miss him. :(


A good life is a collection of happy memories.

100th & Hari Raya..

Seem this post is going to be the 100th, i nak amik kesempatan ni to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin to dear readers. ( haha x de kaitan kan 100th post ngan wish raya)

-Aidilfitri 2008-

" Anak muda di rantauan; semuanya pulang ke desa..
Ibu dan ayah keriangan; bersyukur tak terkira.."

Raya kali ni paling ramai sedara sepupu sepapat ku berkumpul. Macam nak roboh rumah atuk dengan cucu-cucunya yang dah nak dekat 60 orang. Sepuluh dari 12 adik beradik ayah balik raya tahun ni..
Kami buat doa selamat sebagai tanda kesyukuran, Allah satu kan kami satu keluarga yang sangat besar. Aku nampak atuk menangis melihat keletah dan gelagat anak beranak keturunannya.

Sempena dengan raya ni jugak, merupakan Hari Lahir ayah yang ke 50 tahun. Ayah adalah anak atuk yg sulung daripada 12 adik beradik. Ramai kan... :D
Aku tau mesti raya tahun ni, hadiah 'birthday' paling bermakna buat ayah..

Ayah dapat bekumpul dengan keluarga dan adik-beradik kat kampung..
Dan, yang paling penting hajat ayah sempena raya tahun ni termakbul. Aku tumpang gembira dengan kebahagiaan ayah.

Thanks Saufi sebab bahagiakan ayah, sebab tunaikan permintaan ayah.. Betul la kata "lagu raya", hari raya semua ahli keluarga akan berkumpul.

Alhamdulillah.

Tak kurang jugak adik beradik sebelah ummi. Sekali diorg serang, x cukup tangan aku dibuatnya. Penuh betul jadinya rumah ayah.

Hari yang sama jugak, abg datang beraya dengan baju melayu nyer.. Siap bersamping lagi.. (ni nak datang raya ke, nak menikah ni???) hahaua... tak pe la. janji hensem! Thank you for coming dear. Muahhhh..

Kesimpulannya, hari raya tahun ni sangat bermakna buat aku.. Masa ari raya ari tu rasa biasa je raya aku tahun ni. Tapi masa tengah tulis blog ni, flash back balik... baru terasa Aidilfitri 2008 sangat bermakna buat aku.

Semoga ada lagi keindahan Aidilfitri untuk kita semua pada tahun-tahun yang akan datang..

p/s: Azima, tak tau kenapa raya tahun ni kita asyik teringat awak je. Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin yer. I miss you!

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Im back!

Hye!

I've been kind of invisible for a few weeks. Here today at this momment, i am back.

There's a lot to update..
Tapi, let by gone be by gone.. but the memories remain.

Salam Ramadhan dari saya.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Apa azam Ramadhan saya kali ni???? Heheheh hanya saya dan DIA je yang tahu.
(InsyaAllah...)

Apa pulak azam Ramadhan kalian??? Hehehe fikir-fikirkan la.

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

The wheel wont stop rolling.

R.O.D.A

X mo sedih, tapi sedih tetap ada.

Nak happy, tapi kadang-kadang setiap tawa ada dukanya.


T.A.M.A.K

$$$$$$

Dua tiga menjak ni benda yg ni la asyik pusing-pusing dalam kepala.

Teruja dengan kata-kata sorng ofismate nih.


"Kalu hang simpan 1000 sebulan, setahun dah ada 12 ooo. "


Uih bestnya kalo betul cam tu. Sejak hari tu nekad nak saving. Thanks Kak Nurul sebab buka mata saya yg mata duitan nih. $$$$ =D

Rezeki tak datang bergolek tanpa usaha. Dan Yer!!.. aku memang kerja keras untuk itu. Selagi hayat dikandung badan, selagi ada qudrat empat kerat ku, InsyaAllah akan aku usahakan selagi mampu.

-Don't care of anything, I had promised myself to keep away the minimal 1.2K per month. By hook or by crook!!! It is a MUST! GAMBATTE!!!!-

Alhamdulillah.. Allah murahkan rezeki setiap umatNya. Walaupun kita kadang-kadang leka dan lupa dengan tanggungjawab kita sebagai khalifah di bumi ini.. Dia maha pemurah, maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang..

Ampunkan aku Ya Tuhan.. Alhamdulillah di atas kurniaan-Mu. Semoga kita dimurahkan rezeki dan dilimpahi hidayahNya.

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R.IN.D.U
I miss my MR very much. And I know he misses me too.

Dia demam.. Satu hari tak bermaya.. Sunyi sepi rasa hari ku tanpa gurau senda dari "Debab" tersayang.. Maaf tak dapat membantu. Hanya doa dan harapan yang dapat dikirimkan.

Cant wait to meet my Debab next week.. Muahhh.

Owh ya. We play a deal, if I kiss him 10X he tell me 1 secret. Huahuahua... apa susah nyer.... sebut jer la muahmuah 10X. Bukannya depan mata pun. (Try sket korang sebut "muahmuahmuahmuahmuahmuahmuahmuahmuahmuah" haaaa kan dah 10 tu.)

hihihihih....

I just got to know that dulu masa kanak-kanak, org panggil dia "debab". Hihi sooooo cute!.

I got my debab with me. Ok la tu kan.. anak koleng abg ni kan cun dan tembam. You pulak budak itam yg debab. hahahahaha.....

Cepat-cepat sihat yer sayang... nanti macam mana nak datang sini kalau sakit. You have to be strong for your "anak koleng" :( me is waiting for you.

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This month kena tambah lagi stock barang-barang. Sempena dengan SALE, bole la beli sikit-sikit nanti last minute tak de la kering kontang.. Nanti kita cari lagi apa yg patut ye yg...

To my family, kalian tak pernah luput dari ingatan ku. Rindu yang sentiasa menebal, melebihi dari rindu segala manusia yang ada di bumi..

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Ini sangat tidak adil!

Frustrated and upset!

Tak pe.. hari ni hari kau, esok hari aku kau tengok jer la. Heheheh ganas tak ayat. Politik x bley pakai la beb klu setakat wayang jer.

This fellow, I know he’s my senior, tapi all his work sume canang 1 negeri. A lot of people will know he did his job very well.

Tapi kesian kat aku budak setahun jagung ni, yang baru nak belajar kenal apa yang tersorok disebalik system yang berfungsi, diperkotak-katikkan seperti aku tak tahu apa yg aku buat. Ada ke patut????? Tak patut!!!!

But actually I am already 1 step further from him. Tapi 2 org je yang tau apa aku buat. Iaitu aku, Cik Nurul dan Mr H. I did find an alternative way to know the flow how the library system was updated by myself. By method of Q&A to somebody who is more experienced.
And I know the existing of the script in our server which contents all the information I need for my assignment.

Nobody knows that I am already studying the script.

Then 1 whole day aku tak de kat office, and have no idea what was happened.

Nak dijadikan cerita, on the next day…

Tetiba benda yg aku highlight kat meeting minutes yg aku tgh study script have been deleted by donno who tanpAa aku tau apa dah jadi time meeting smlm..
Apa korang rasa???


He said its OK Nurul, let me handle this issue. Its not OK!!!. Ni keje aku biar la aku yg abiskn.

Suddenly this morning dapat emails the’ mentioned’ fellow was asking superb duperb bombastic emails to US persons asking directly how library was updated, who is the person incherged and everything.

Then they replied back and tell him about the script that I had already found earlier..

Bole rasa tak apa aku rasa??? I did the job halfway but nobody knows and they delete what I did looks like I didn’t know what I do.

Actually I dah 1 step further from him. If u got the script you no need to ask for others beb. It is all stated in the script.

And now nampak macam aku yg x de progress, and sume org tau dia kena follow up or take over benda tu konon2 aku tak tau apa aku buat.

Huarghhhhh!!!!! Aku sangat bengang kalo org keje wayang ni.

Apa pun thank you so much to Mr H. Ko memang baik and suka tolong orang.

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

My day but not really the day.

It increase again year by year.
Thinking what i had gone through for my entire life.
And still looking for the best in livings.

Been super duper busy for whole day. Out of office for one day.
Poor me. :(

Thanks guys for all the wishes. And i really hope everything will come true.

The day passed. 18 mins past 12am.

Checking my emails. Looking for updated what is happened to my current assignment..
Hmmm geram because im am out of office for 1 day, other person dah take over my job.
Come on la... I know it is a competition. But please do raspect some others responsibilities. My job is my job, n your job is yours. I yang dah buat study sikit2 pasal scripting tu and still learning all the processes, tiba-tiba tup tup dah siap or nak siap im not sure. No worries if just to help or give guidence but not to fully take over.

It is new to me, and i really hope this is a chance where i can show my credibilities to handle issues.

-seriously terasa sakit n kecik ati-

tak nak pegi keje esok bole tak? malu nak pegi jumpa muka sume orang sbb dlm action item for meeting, i am the one yg responsible utk assignment tu, but suddenly some other fellow yang follow up sampai siap just because i tak de kat office, went for 1 whole day training outside.

hmmm.. what should i say????

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Burden and responsibility????

A burden on me.
Now it became a burden to me.

( Orang kata biar bersederhana )

How can I help it?
How can I helping others since i am never bother about myself.

Please give me strength of saying 'NO'

I am tired enuff. I am exhausted.
I need a rest. I need a peace of mind and soul. I want to sleep tightly.

Yey! esok balik umah.
Hmm waiting so long.. I miss them to the max!



A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Cinta dan Duit

Thank you for the ring.. :D

My weekend sangat best but then agak memenatkan jugak.

Cover 1 whole day with classes on Saturday.. Penat betul class dari kul 9am till 7pm direct non-stop.

Can't wait to meet him tomorrow. -wiwiwi-

Waiting for my Dear MR on Sunday morning. Bring him along to class for 2 hours. So pity you.. Im sorry. Its money lorrr..

We watched WANTED. Best tp bunuh orang sangat kejam.

Hari minggu yang terasa sangat cepat.
He went back to Melaka last night at 11.45pm. Semoga selamat sampai ye sayang...
:(

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Hmm I got a new student.

Donno where should I put her in my schedule.

Donno how to say; "Sorry puan, I couldn't make it. My schedule is already full"

Kesimpulannya try jugak to fit in inside any holes available. Tak pe la... duit...
Huh adakah aku MATA DUITAN???? tak... I need money and yea money is very important for life.

Anybody sesiapa in Penang area yang terasa-rasa nak try jadi home tutor, please contact me. But please make sure do it seriously. Ajar anak orang satu amanah.

I still have another 2 students available. The schedule is during office hour, alternate day, 2 hours per session, rm20-30 per hour. (huahuahua... u can get at least rm480 per person.)

Really fit to someone yang buat home tutor for full time.

Yeye!! dapat birthday voucher from JUSCO. Sangat-sangat valueble. AKu perlu gunakannya untuk membeli barang-barang untuk di persembahkan kelak. Available until end of next month.. Maknanya bulan depan kena shopping lagi... huhuhu kering.. kering... :(


A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Get well soon dear...

Live update from Ipoh Specialist Hospital

Dik, cepat sembuh yer. My pray will always be at your side.

I know it is painful.. Tapi sabar.. kalau nak cepat sembuh, kita kena kuat k.

I can see the tears of pain...

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Weekend

I can’t sleep. (11.39pm)

Status: semua orang jadi burung hantu malam ni.

SPAIN VS GERMANY

Will wait for the result.

GO SPAIN GO!

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My whole weekend was tiring.

-s.h.o.p.p.i.n.g-

Synonym to a name of a species of a lady, nobody can help when it comes to a shopping issue.

I bought some shirts, some shoes and a pair of jeans.
Some toiletries and some supplements for health.

Tuka stereng baru. Uwaaaa nyesal beli awal2.. kalo tak leh dapat stereng free sponsored by my dear... Hmm kena demand hadiah lain nih.

Wiwiwi…. Wa dah separa pokai oooo….

Guess what.. I went for shopping alone..carry all those bags alone..
Couldn’t find my parking also alone..

Iron lady must be independent kan..

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Sunday was very terrible.

Bulan bintang semua keluar.

I skipped all my afternoon till night class. X bole tahan ooo… rasa macam nak tercabut pinggang.

Balik umah, had some rest n gain back my energy.

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

the eyes OF the cat

saya RINDU ayah
saya RINDU ummi

syg RINDU abg

k long RINDU saufi
k long RINDU fizal
k long RINDU mohd

Sabtu malam yang sangat membosankan..

ABIS SEMUA orang aku RINDU

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Sepatutnya nak pegi Melaka malam ni.. Tapi sayang.. tiket bas abis.
Kaktiny siap nak offer antar kan aku g sana lagi dari KL. Baik betul orang itu walaupon aku tak kenal siapa. Hehehehe...Tapi aku tau benda tu sangat lah mustahil.

Melepas aku nak makan durian kat kampung DIA.

"Jangan la abis kan semua durian satu dusun tu ye. Gemok la nanti..."

Geram kat abg kenapa dah last minit baru leh terlintas nak g Melaka.
Aku curik2 kuar time keje tadi lari g stesen bas nak cari tiket.
Dari pagi tadi lagi aku dah tak de mood sbb tiket bas abis.

Pembawakan emosi sampai ke malam.

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Tak tau kenapa sejak akhir-akhir ni aku jadi sangat berkira kalau bab duit.
Bila nak beli apa-apa aku akan pikir kepentingan.. sudahnya APA PUN tak beli.. dek terlalu banyak sangat tapis.Hehehe...

Petang semalam semasa sesi memontengkan diri dari seminar, aku ke Bukit Jambul.
Nak cari brooch gantung-gantung. Kononnya trend zaman sekarang..
MAHAL.. 1 set RM18 aku x mo beli.
See dah aku berkira..

Teringat pasar malam kat umah CHAH barang dia murah-murah.

SIMPAN niat tu sampai hari ni.

Lepas keje tadi merayau sorang-sorang kat pasar malam.Berjam-jam membelek, aku rembat 2 set brooch gantung-gantungan dengan harga RM15. Berbaloi bukan????????

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Jalan-jalan di pasar malam, tiba-tiba ternampak buah fav aku dan My Dear MR.
Terus SMS dia dengan HATI YANG SAYU.

"Abg kita nampak makcik ni jual BUAH MATA KUCING. GEMOK-GEMOK la buah dia.. Geram.. Kita nak beli tapi takut batuk kalau kita makan sorg. Kalau abg ada kan best kita leh makan rebut-rebut"

"Uihh sedapnya yg.. Nak jugak.. Syg beli la sikit je. Jangan banyak sangat nanti batuk. Beli RM5 je k"

"Makcik saya nak setengah kilo. Bape ringgit ye?"

"4 Ringgit dik"

OK. -Bayar-

Tengok jam baru pukul 10.00 malam.

Berangan, kalau ada tiket bas tadi mesti sekarang ni aku tengah siap-siap kan.. Uwaaa kenapa aku rasa terkilan sangat ni. hmmmm terkilan ke perkataan dia?

Bukan! more to sedih kot.

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Tiba-tiba.. (10.37pm)

My Dear MR SMS cakap dia pun dah ada BUAH MATA KUCING.

"Abg ada 3Kg.. heheh jangan jeles"

CEH!!!! Dengki la tu sebab aku ada setengah kilo.
Balik dari anta adik dia kat Alor Gajah tadi terus report kat aku dia g beli buah tu.
Hmmm malam2 pun sanggup cari ke yg???

ESOK kalo demam, padan muka yer!!!

Kesimpulannya itu lah kehebatan BUAH MATA KUCING kepada kami yang sorang di Penang, sorang lagi di Melaka.

KAMI pernah abiskan 2KG buah mata kucing dalam masa tak sampai sejam. (",)
I missed that moment..

Aku jugak pernah demam & batuk kat 2 minggu gara-gara overdosed buah mata kucing. Sebab tu dah tak berani nak makan buah tu kalau sorang-sorang.



A good life is a collection of happy memories.

damn...

Ya Allah tolong la bosannya ya amat.....
Huih!!!!!!

Sedih x dapat g Melaka. Tiket dah abis. uwaaaa...
Nape la Melaka x de airport.

Nanti dah kaya nak beli heli sendiri la. Senang bebila terasa nak pegi pun bole.
Cewaah... bercakap macam heli tu dua tiga posen. Huahuahua...

Aku yang tak berapa nak betul ari ni... Keciwaaaa..

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

There is tomorrow

Dah siang.. tak sesuai dengan mood blues lagi kan..
Moh kita cergas! pantas! sentiasa..

1st of all, Thank you to ALLAH sebab panjangkan umur kita.. Alhamdulillah boleh bangun lagi pagi ni.
Hidup mesti diteruskan..

Owh ya.. Ayah dah sihat.
Thanks kat kawan-kawan yang mendoakan.
Cuma still kena follow up dengan treatment yang kena tunggu.
Hmmm apa pun ayah selamat dah pegi outstation merata-rata.

Huahuahua...BENGANG je Ummi.. :D
Kadang-kadang, so funny la my parent. Dah tua-tua pun still lagi nak manja-manja.
Mengadu kat anak ayah asyik meeting ke sana sini...

Ayah pulak report kat anak kata Ummi merajuk sebab ayah asyik kena kuar keje.

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:D anak yang kat Penang ni, senyum-senyum je memikirkan kerenah ayah dan ummi tersayang.

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Heheh.... Ummi, ayah bukan saja nak pegi merata-rata.. Dah tugas dan tanggungjawab kepada NEGARA tercinta, terpaksa la pergi.

Apa pun, I am very proud of them. I pray they will grow their love until the end of life.

InsyaAllah...

And I also proud to say that, "Kak Long lagi sayang+cinta Ayah & Ummi sangat-sangat"





A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Blues of the night

just to keep updated..

Mode: Goodbye from Air Supply

I dont wanna let u down..

u would never ask me why..

i would rather heart my self..

blablabla...

no other way but just say Goodbye...

lagu pun abis..

Hehe jangan pikir yang bukan-bukan.. mode lagu tak de kaitan dengan saya sekarang ni.. Just tgh cari mood nak tido. ;)

My few days back OK OK jer.. not much new things happened.

Haaaa!!! baru teringat hari dapat lunch free. huahuahua..

Kata orang, "rezeki jangan di tolak, musuh jangan ngada-ngada nak cari"

Instead of pegi seminar, kisah Virtual Desktop ( which is still ALIEN to me) kat ' g' Hotel.. Makan was sponsored.

On the next day, tersesat join farewell lunch Aiza kat PizzaHut. By invitation yer.. bukan wat muka x malu mengjoinkan diri ok.

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Wawawawa..... ni lagu my fav band. Sorry ye lari tajuk jap.. Tengah layan blues sementara nak tunggu tido. I am an oldies hearted. hehehe....

Huh I love Micheal Learns To Rock very very much!!!

Here is Thats Why You Go Away from (MLTR)

Love is one big illusion...

I wont forget the way ur kisses...

The feeling so strong will lasting for so long..

But im not the man your heart is misses...

blablabla....

Thas why you go away I know...

No worries.. again 'lagu' tak de kaitan ngan kisah hidup saya.

The 'thing' still blooming inside each other, and perhaps it will getting stronger till the end.

I love u dear.. come and visit me tonight in your wonderful dreams ya! -wink- (",)

:sleepy mode:

-tata-

A good life is a collection of happy memories.

Ayah cepat la sembuh...

Sinonim dengan kisah Hari Bapa yang baru je lepas..
Berkaitan dengan reminder "terima kasih abah" yang Faisal dah ingatkan,

Ayah masuk ward..
Sempena Father's Day semalam, aku baru je doakan semoga ayah panjang umur dah sihat selalu.
erm.. kenapa ye?

Petang semalam tengok cite Ixora, Onni dalam cite tu ada bg tau Reza pasal penyakit keturunan.

Hari ni banyak study pasal Kidney Stones, High Uric Acid, Bladder urine, Kidney cancer..

What are symptoms of kidney stones?
While some kidney stones may not produce symptoms (known as "silent" stones), people who have kidney stones often report the sudden onset of excruciating, cramping pain in their low back and/or side, groin, or abdomen.

Changes in body position do not relieve this pain. The pain typically waxes and wanes in severity, characteristic of colicky pain (the pain is sometimes referred to as renal colic).

It may be so severe that it is often accompanied by nausea and vomiting.
Kidney stones also characteristically cause blood in the urine. If infection is present in the urinary tract along with the stones, there may be fever and chills.

What are the causes of blood in urine?
There are multiple causes of blood in urine. Some are serious, including cancers, trauma, stones, infections, and obstructions of the urinary tract. Others are less important and may require no treatment.

Semua symptoms dah ada pada aku.. Tapi harap-harap dia bukan yang 'itu'. Tolong la saya tangat takut...

Dalam Bahasa Melayu nya, orang cakap sakit 'batu karang'.. Yang aku tau penyakit ni sakit keturunan.

Hari ahad lepas SMS ayah,

" Ayah, batu karang tu boleh jalan2 ke pegi kiri kanan? Sblm ni sakit kat belakang belah kiri.. Tapi ari ni dia dah pindah pegi belah kanan pulak."

Ayah terus call. Ayah cakap tu memang antara symptoms.. Karang pergi Farmasi cari ubat Himalaya 'Cystones'

Minggu lepas dah pegi klinik. Doc check urine, Doc kata kencing kotor... ada darah dalam you punya urine... ( tak tau la banyak ke sikit.. sebab tak tanya lebih)

hmmm... Ayah dah leh rasa sebenarnya anak dia ni pun dah nak kena batu karang.. Sama macam ayah..

Ayah pesan kat aku banyak minum air, makan ubat n pegi jumpa doctor. Ayah x nak aku sakit macam dia jugak.

Tup..tup... semalam dapat berita ayah admitted kat ward sebab kidney stones.
Pagi tadi tanya ayah, Doc baru X-Ray mmg ada stones, tapi stones tu dah kuar dari kidney.
Alhamdulillah.. At least dah otw nak keluar dari badan.. Follow up treatment x tau lagi. Nanti report.

Saya doakan semoga ayah cepat sembuh... Doa Father's Day saya " semoga ayah panjang umur dan sihat selalu" Moga-m0oga dimakbulkan Nya..

A good life is a collection of happy memories.